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| i decided that i wanted to use my brain, which is unusual lately, and learn something new. i decided on getting into programming a little bit.
the end result is i won't be posting on here much, if at all, anymore. check out my journal at www.landreth.us | | |
| lately i've been really uneasy. yeah, there's the obvious stuff like having ended yet another contract job and not having much income right now. at least i do have a job, but it's not exactly bringing in much income (details on this might as well be another entry). aside from this, i've moved 9 times in the past 3 years, and i was at one place for almost a year and a half.
i seem to get very uneasy whenever my life's "routine" drastically changes. it seems a normal day-to-day job keeps me sane by providing a schedule for my life...something i'm not the greatest at on my own. although with all the moving, my "routine" seems to always change and screw me up again about the time i'm getting it down. this seems to affect several aspects of my life...primarily my sleep habits and spiritual life. i sleep through a normal night one day. i may stay up the next night until 5am and sleep until 3pm. this of course screws me all up. i also get out of the habit of having any type of quiet time or devotional each day. sometimes i go a week or more without even much thought of God.
last night i got a kick in the butt while reading my friend Todd's Xanga page. here's an exerpt from his Sept 1 entry...
of course tomorrow i'll start with my morning workout at the gym. there's something good for the soul in being focussed physically. that i'm looking forward to. i really wanna get back in shape and run another marathon someday.
mind you, this is all quite contrary to a very significant portion of my being which wants me to lay on the couch all day eating reese's cups while watching worthless tv. however, i find that if i don't let that part win, i'm not only more productive, i just feel more alive and i'm more there emotionally with people... and there's this sense in which i'm more awake spiritually. it's worth the effort to be alive like that.
i haven't done this in a while. it's time i start again. starting today, i'm going to do 2 things .every. day: 1) work out 2) have a quiet time. i give any of you who bother to read all this permission to hold me accountable to this.
and with that...i'm off to call about some photography job. i'll let you know how it goes
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| the peer pressure finally got to me, and now i'm here with my own xanga account.
i'm not going to pretend that i write all that often...or even to be a decent writer, but i've always liked the idea of writing down my thoughts or even randomness. so i'm going to try and regularly update this and we'll see how it goes. i'm sure i'll do it regularly for a few days and then i'll drop off some.
you'll just have to check every now and then and see. | | |
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